About phantasms and attachment to the past

A movie

phantomRecently I saw a low-cost one but interesting movie; the protagonist, a young man in their thirties, living in love with a woman, die in a car accident. Probably due to their strong attachment to their nice live and his couple, their soul remain into their home, wandering. The look of our guy is very classical: a phantasm covered with a white sheet with two holes acting as eyes.  He can see  but he can’t talk, nor communicate in any way. The phantasm contemplate their couple, depressed, crying, for a while, then, she start to dating with other man … time flies, the woman sell the house, so the phantasm become alone in the empty house, observing, new people come to the house, … at last, after many years of wandering, the phantasm suddenly realizes their time has passed away, realizes there are nothing there connected with him, and he become free of attachment, and disappear from this material world. Being a movie not dedicated to achieve high amounts of incomes, the action is very slow, with long shots showing the monotone “life” of the phantasm, doing nothing, only observing, watching the house. I think this slow speed, that at first worried me due to the lack of habit (you know, all the commercial movies are on the other side, action and more action, with very fast conversations, etc) was necessary for really understand the mental state of a person strongly attached to something that has ceased to exist, waiting unconsciously for a impossible return. I didn’t be aware in that time, but now  I realize the message really penetrate into my subconscious.

Attached to a memory


Old times, people no longer there, but house still is there.

Last Saturday, I’m reading while traveling by suburban train;  the convoy stops in a railway station, and absently I look up from the book for find out where I am … oh … is the station where I lived many years before, with my parents, both died now. Nostalgia invades me, my lost childhood, etc. And then I think maybe some day I’ll go down in this station, then I will walk to my old house, now inhabited for another family, and I will sit there, in front of the house, for relive the old sensations for a while, yes, maybe is a good idea. Then, while I was thinking about, I saw my own reflection on the window of the train, in front of me; being a window, not a mirror, my reflections was very blur. And then, suddenly, I remember the movie, my image looks like a phantasm, not with a white sheet but blur, seated there, still, waiting, desiring reliving a past that never will return … I was a phantasm! Oh dear! Or at least, I was behaving like a ghost, chained to a house by memories. This thought deeply disturbed me, I never before had considered the emotional attachment to a place in this way. The train resumed, and I remain meditative, trying to see, to understand the lesson. Seems to me that every moment is unique, it exists for a brief moment and then disappears… sure? All disappears every moment? Seems absurd, seems nothing really exists, is like another phantasm, with no real existence, mm…

The book, the time and the present moment

At home, I mean the actual one. After lunch, I’m looking for a book about Bach’s flowers, an alternative therapy for emotional equilibrium, not for me, but for my wife. We have lots of books in home, distributed in many libraries, shelves, tables, and not very well ordered, so is not easy to find the book. As it often happens, while looking for a book I find other books that read many years ago, almost forgotten, and is a nice surprise see them again … oh! this one, interesting, and this other, also interesting, … so I finally return to the living room with some books, for reread them. One of the books is about inner work, I mean, meditation; I opened it randomly and read:

We have the illusion that time is continuous, but really, at every moment everything disappears and reappears. It is like a systole and a diastole of creation, but we only live through diastole. At every moment, everything is created. Therefore, each moment is unique and unrepeatable. As this happens very quickly, we have the feeling of continuity, as when we see a film composed of dozens of frames that parade at great speed in front of our eyes. When you work the conscience, you can get to see this.

Wow … what a coincidence! The movie, the station and my insight, and now this text, randomly chosen. Indeed, modern Quantum Mechanics is also pointing in this direction: time is not continuous, but discrete, advance by “jumping”, with very short intervals of … no time! This intervals are really short: named Planck time, is approximately 5.39 × 10 −44 s, a unimaginable little bit of time: universe is about 4,7304e+17s old, so in a scale from Plank time to a Universe age, the time “one second” is more near to the age of Universe than the Plank time, that is a very very little interval of time!


Scale of powers of ten: at left, 10⁻⁴⁴ is the Plank time, 1 represents 1 second, and at right, 10¹⁶ is near the age of Universe

Is possible that a meditator are able to perceive such insignificant time interval? Maybe the writer was aware of this quantum law and was influenced by it, imagining he can fell it. Anyway, it was a great coincidence.  

Indeed, my own experience is just the contrary; in deep meditation, feeling the unity of all the creation, I often also feel the unity of time: there are only one unique instant, eternal, that incorporate all. Is the unity of all in space and also in time. Maybe is a matter of point of view: when we see all from a whole view, with expanded awareness, the unity of all is the answer, but when we dive in our own awareness, looking for the center, then we find the pulse of the creation, that systole and a diastole movement of creation.

galaxia plana




Motivation and Love

Basically, we are motivated about something when we have a reason to act in a certain way related to the thing. For example, there are many motivations for work thirty five or more hours a week, like enjoy doing something useful for others, or expressing our potentialities through a well-done work, or even simply for money, indeed, this last possibility often is more a need than a motivation.

One meaning of love is to have a strong liking for, to take great pleasure in something. We even can do something simply because we love it. So love is a motivation. Reflecting a bit, when we are doing something we really enjoy, we can say we love do it, no more motivations are needed. Even people working for earn lots of money, do it because they “love money”. Being more subtle, people who work simply for live also are motivated for to live well, for  don’t fall in poverty, because they love themselves enough for act in this way.

So, consider this statement: ultimately, all motivation is based in love for something, maybe for ourselves, for our family, friends, for a well-done work, for power o money, etc. Without love there are not any motivation for act.

Let me go further: all things surrounding us are created by any motivation, so by love; the building where you live, for enjoy a warm and secure home, so for self-love, self-care, the streets, cars, many services at our disposal, are motivated for give a good environment to the society, so for care, for love to it. Thinking in this way, the reader can realize how many implicated is love as ultimate motivation in all the human creations.

Now we go even further: what is the motivation, if any, of life in itself? Science, pragmatically, says as there are not any motivation, things simply happened … although is impressively unlikely the complexity of life arises and evolves without any motive, but science, for their own nature, has to maintain  their statements. What about love as ultimate motivation for life? Why our billions of cells are working together, cooperating in an incredible sophisticated way, for maintain our body alive? Is life unmotivated? Try to consider, for a moment, that love is also the motivation of all life; try to meditate on it, with open mind, without judgment, simply observing the resonances of such concept.

Similarly, all the creation, from the big explosion named Big Bang, up to the present Universe, is an evolution from nothing at all up to cosmos we have and we live into. No motivation? Random creation and evolution? Science must say it, is mandatory for any scientist think in such way, but again, try to consider there are a motivation underlying, a primal motivation, the same from the entire cosmos, up to every human being. Adopting uncountable forms, such primary love impulses, motivates all the dynamic of the cosmos. Try to meditate in it, with open mind, and the results will come.

Physic reality and Mysticism

Physic reality as a continuum

Physic reality as a continuum, from Unmanisfested up to manifested, and beyond, maybe the return to Unmanifested?

In the picture I have tried show the physic reality as are presented by modern physic science, but also with a strong relationship with the points of view of many spiritual traditions. Let imagine all the reality as it were contained in a two dimensional surface,  to the left material objects gradually disappear, entering it the world of pure energy, and leftmost even the energy disappear and we arrive to the absolute void. But this void is not so void, but a very special one: is the source of all the rest, so it contains infinite potential energy, ready to start the creation. To the right we enter to the realm of matter: from very little objects like molecules up to worlds; rightmost we find enormous aggregations of matter, like the stars, and beyond this point scientists say there are mysterious “objects”, named black holes, where the matter vanish, and also time and  space, in a similar way to the leftmost void. Indeed, in the realm of pure energy time and space don’t exist, at least like we live them in our ordinary conscious state. This picture shows a scientific point of view, but also a mystical one, some references about:

When the day of Brahma dawns, forms are brought forth from the Unmanifest, when the night of Brahma comes, these forms merge in the formless again. Beyond this formless state there is another, unmanifested reality, which is eternal and is not dissolved when the cosmos is destroyed“. – Bhagavad Gita, chapter 8, Eknath Easwaran translation from Sanskrit.-

In Buddhism, Dharmakāya constitutes the unmanifested, “inconceivable” (acintya) aspect of a Buddha, out of which Buddhas arise and to which they return after their dissolution.” (from Wikipedia)

For all that is made manifest is subject to becoming, for it hath been made manifest. But the Unmanifest for ever is, for It doth not desire to be made manifest. It ever is, and maketh manifest all other things.” Hermetic tradition, source: Hermetica: The Greek Corpus Hermeticum… by Brian P. Copenhaver

Al-Batin” is one of Allah’s 99 Names. The meaning of Al-Batin is “The Hidden, The Unmanifest, The Inner”. Source: http://www.iqrasense.com/allahs-99-names

At present, the main difference between the unmanifested points of view of science and mysticism is, I think, the personal factor: while in the scientific view there are not anybody there (except in the matter realm of course), in the mystical view we are much more than matter, so we are indeed full citizens of the unmanifested world, but only the illuminated people notice it. Moreover, the bridge between the matter realm and unmanifested realm are consciousness, which has the power to travel through the whole reality, if we train it.

An important point is: there are not any “wall” separating the material, manifested world and the non material  unmanifested one, reality is a continuum, the separation only exists in our limited little mind.

Actualization: an interesting reading about this topic I have found: Laozi and Quantum Physics.

Talks with a master

This post is an extract of one talk between some seekers of knowledge and Antonio Blay, a Spanish master. Blay has not been translated to other languages, he didn’t travel to other countries, and he didn’t establish schools nor ashrams, unlike many oriental masters. That’s why he’s not well known. But his teachings are actually worthy. I read them since twenty years ago. The talk I want to extract is related to Advaita Vedanta philosophy, which nowadays I’m studying. Specifically, the topics covered are:

  • Continuity between different conscience planes
  • Self and Creation
  • Time and conscience. Existence as a pulsation
  • The now and the void
  • Knowledge, reasoning and intuition


Continuity between different conscience planes

Student: we feel separated from higher planes of existence, but we have heard there are only one existence, why this feeling then?

Master: Due to our partial perception, indeed there are not any separation. Seen from “above” there are not any creation because creation is all, all is included. Instead seen from “below” there are. 

Student: What do you mean with “above”?

Master: The highest point that can be, which is out of the creation.

Self and Creation

Student: I see, then, there are only a whole and nothing more, is this whole the creator?

Master: As I said, from outside of the creation, creation can’t exist. On the other hand if we are in the conscious of the creation, then the only thing that exist is the creation. We can’t live both aspects at the same time. The problem is: while we are into the creation, we are trying to attribute the subjective notion we have, to the highest Self, imagining a being called God, and this is wrong. If you call Self to the Absolute reality, then the creation is not, and if you call Self to the whole creation, then the Absolute is not. 

Student: But, can’t we see God like something embedded in all the things around us?

Master: Does not matter. Or are the forms, or is God, but not together.  God is not any form nor thing.

Student: I mean to see him as something global.

Master: When you have a set of things, you can think in global, but the Creator of everything can’t be another thing, do you understand? We usually think about God like whether He were a thing, a very big thing, but a thing, this is false. Actually, we can’t formulate anything about the Creator, when we do it, we take attributes from our experience, from the becoming, from the manifested, while He is beyond it. 

Time and conscience. Existence as a pulsation

Student: Creation and time go together, right? So, seen from “above”, there are no time, and seen from “below” there are time but no “above”. So seen from here, from creation, what is “above”? 

Master: A phenomenon of consciousness.

Student: Then, the creation is a process running? Seeing it from creation point of view.

Master: Creation seems a continuous process … to our consciousness. But is possible to discover creation has a discontinuity. Is like the images in film: there is an illusion of continuity, but actually is not continuous, there are times that there aren’t images, there is nothing at all. The notion of time come from our conscience of change, comparing our perception of a small part of the whole with others perceptions of other small parts. But time, seen from above, is only one thing, one moment. So the Creation is a single action made from eternity. But also is is an action made in each moment, seen from below. Each moment has their root in the eternity of now. Moreover, we can live, we can experience, that in each moment, things cease to be, and are again. So in each moment we can live in a unique and total way, because in every moment all start to be new

The now and the void

Student: I think we can live the time as non existent, because only exist the present moment, past and future don’t exist, right?

Master: Not exactly. If for you the present is a succession of events or states, then it is not more the present. Present is unique, without any change. You can live it looking for the root of your live, the root of all the phenomena. When you stop to live hypnotized for the phenomena field, and try to find the “I” from where arise all, your subjective notion of time will disappear. Eventually you’ll reach a point without dimensions nor time, but at the same time it includes all possible notion of time. And you are able to do it now: you can do it, you can live it.

Student: yeah, I have read about the void, there are schools teaching it, like Zen for example. They say the world indeed not exist …

Master: Said that way is false. They say the real nature of all is void (Sunyata). According with Mahayana, this is the true reality of everything. And is right. But, if we see it from our consciousness, identified with things, the the notion of void is false. 

Knowledge, reasoning and intuition

Student: All of this seem to me too theoric, and maybe not useful.

Master: Not believe it, this are important questions, related with states of mind. Many people ask this questions, so is a demand from within, borned from a need. Mind needs feed for their develop, the mind is satisfied knowing only. 

Student: But by the way of knowledge we can’t understand this topics, right?

Master: I think so yes, moreover, is the only way for come to understand it. 

Student: You mean understand intuitively, without reasoning?

Master: To think is related to look for intuitions, when you think wanting to know the subject, to understand it. When an area of mind need enlightenment, a research process is needed, human mind works that way. But we don’t have to limit the research to find concepts, instead we need to see what is behind the concepts. The true is behind the thinking, so eventually I have to stop think … even my mind still run, very attentive and relaxed. 

Student: I still believe is complicated to think about this topics …

Master: You don’t have to think, you have to see. I don’t think. Is a inner silent attitude. 


Bibliography: “Pláticas sobre el trabajo interior. Conversaciones con Antonio Blay“. (Spanish edition)